songs from the last time i died

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boss man 03:45
thank you bossman for giving me these things to build they silence my mind and my heart and time goes away just for a moment with my work anchor me somewhere like an old sunken ship on the bottom of the harbor and thank you perfection for being in my life from time to time oh you know i will approach you and i will pretend that you are mine just for a moment with these hands these worn and weathered hands with these hands these torn and leathered hands i found a little bit of light and i done wrong and i done right and if every breath is a prayer my gods reveal yourselves to me i wanna know what i look like on the inside and i got a plan and i can tell you all about it man but unless you help me build it you will never understand
change 03:20
come on change and finish what you started why's it always gotta rain on the broken hearted? i put out the flame of my dearly departed so come on pain and grow cold just like her heart is pick up all of my pieces and throw them all away but save me the good one or two to help me want to stay i've come unchained this cold is in my bones and winter's not the same when you're all alone so come on and change what's mine is yours to own so come on change and finish what you started come on change and finish what you started
empty room 03:34
what do i do with these blues that follow me around like tomorrow? well maybe i'll build a house of music and fill it with my sorrow and sit there on a chair by myself in my empty room i thought anger was a thing to be let out but now i know it comes running in when it comes out of your mouth but i said oh man i've cut myself enough times to know how to not cut myself no more and now there's blood on the floor and a bottle on the shelf in my empty room i'm opening the window as the morning begins and i'm talking to the sunlight and it's letting the sunlight in to my empty room
jennjamin 03:48
this is my language so i can finally speak to you don't believe a word i say unless i'm singing cause this is where what i believe comes true it's been 25 years playing these things out with the old in with blues cause you're the first woman to hit me with a love song got me dreamin of undoing all the wrong jennjamin oh jennjamin jennjamin i see you within myself almost everywhere in this universe you wont find nobody better than me but you can find someone less worse cause i'm bad to the bone some nice little honey britches sugar boy who don't know a thing bout being cursed cause girl you're the first woman to get me hit with these love songs with these silly stupid love songs
moon song 04:33
hey there mother moon i've been trying to know you all these years but you have yet to howl back but you're still my beacon in the black and sometimes you go away sometimes you go away but you're still beneath my feet gone beyond the horizon nobody worry bout me i'm making laughter with strangers a dangerous game in the dark me and the moon are making friends me and the moon are making friends and sharing laughter with strangers and these dead winter trees are just dormant seems to me anyway we're back here bending in the wind
stupid 02:53
you did that stupid thing it makes me feel stupid too i done a stupid thing or two too you did that stupid thing and i did that stupid thing do you still around too? cause i'm still around for you it makes me feel stupid too
are you gods just drunk in your dimensions? i guess everything i see is just a reflection are we really just alone? alone in this darkness i guess even in this lonely cold we all still have direction so hold my hand in the night because even if i'm blind your warmth still feels alright even the sun someday will burn herself cold just like you and me she's up there growing old so let's scatter our rays and reflect on my world and i'll feel the light that we will never hold unless you hold my hand in the night hold my soul with all your might cause i can't see a thing right now but your warmth still feels so right so hold my hand in the night
the sun is out and there's a wind in the west where the weather blows in and i can tell you when the storm is coming and within the rain intangible are pieces of the sun there is fire in the water and i'm gonna get me some blast off here i go again soaring with no wings but watch me go watch me go away sometimes when i stand on the edge i watch the world from a distance and my baby is out there piece by piece day by day everything goes away especially the rainbows within me all these broken colors within me well they taste so black help me pull apart the grey within me into colors and bring my rainbow back


released December 18, 2015

Written by Murat Dirlik
Produced, Engineered & Mixed by Mike Westbrook
Mastered by Nicholas T. Petersen at Track and Field Recording
Cover Photo/Layout by Jacob Lunow

Murat Dirlik: Vocals, Acoustic Guitar, Electric Guitar, Bass Guitar, Harmonica, Woodchuck Whistle, Piano on "epithet: heart-shaped rock"
Mike Westbrook: Electric Guitar, Acoustic Guitar
Daryl White: Upright Bass
John Crouch-Drums
Don McCray-Keyboards/Organ
Nathan Golub-Pedal Steel
Christian Adams-Cello
Adam Nolton-Lead Guitar on "jennjamin", "stupid", "rainbow eater"
Johnny Wall-Drums on "epithet: heart shaped rock"


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